Things have changed alot.

I stopped being active with art because of college, working, putting my ex girlfriend above everything.

I found I could only make things when i was feeling down.

I spent three years with that girl.

All in all I think it was good, just shouldn't have been dragged out so long.

I love karma though


Between 2005 and 2006 I worked for apple inc.

It was a great time.

Apple and I parted ways in october of 2006. I didn't work until I got a job at gamestop where I met a bunch of interesting people. I knew gamestop wouldn't be in my resume because its not a high profile job. The pay sucked and the nazi selling points.

I'm glad I worked there because I got to meet a wonderful girl named Rachel. I just talked to her while working there because she was engaged and I was trying to repair the relationship I had with crystal.

Things got shitty, I ended up distancing myself from all girls I knew to prove to crystal that I was serious.

I was kicked out of my house because I was trying to be with crystal again. Essentially my entire family hates her. They could see she was keeping me down.

Crystal just didn't want to let me back in. I had to accept that it wasn't meant to be.

I moved back home, crystal stopped talking to me entirely.

My heart felt like it was dead.

I went on for weeks then I finally started dating.

My friend dana introduced me to a nice girl named jamie. Jamie just turned 18 and I'm about to be 22. I felt awkward about that. I know shes 18 and legal, but its not cool. Took her to see some movie about cooking.

That didn't work.

I then took that cool rachel girl out to dinner with her friend at buffalo wild wings in dearborn. She was cool and was single. She thought I was hot and wanted to hangout more. So we did.

I ended up watching the lunar eclipse with her and asked her out.

Pretty quick I know, but it was time to move on.

Get busy living or get busy dying.


Also, june through august I worked for a sadistic italian jewelry store owner. The man thought he knew everything and everyone was stupid and didn't know. He thinks ebay is a program. Doesn't understand anything except jets, coins, jewelry.

I'm sure he doesn't know his cunt wife is cheating on him.

They fired me / I didn't give a shit because I wanted to get a degree in school.

btw, I'm irish.

The italians fucking hate the irish and it goes the other way.
I don't have a problem with italians, just with that one. Tony. Tony goddamn sklabassi. Purposely spelling it wrong.

I'm going back to Apple Inc. soon. I have an interview with them on the 10th, and going to see about working at their new store. If not I'll be in at a local cable company, brighthouse.

I'm going out with rachel btw, shes a cool cat.
Totally wicked in bed too, and I'm back.
While with crystal I lost my balls pretty much. She demoralized me all the time, and when you have a man who doesn't feel like a man. A man who should be called a empty shell. I couldn't fuck like how I used to, pretty much sucked.

Not to mention crystal wasn't a skinny girl, or a average girl. The woman weighted more than me at one point; and I'm not light.
I had to try to condition my taste in women to what she was. Granted I like a girl with meat on her bones, but not a woman with oatmeal for thighs. It would have been different if she was nice, but you know, she was ugly on the inside and it just flooded out everywhere. Complete disregard for how she looked.

She even convinced me that I was not attractive, told me I sucked in bed, destroyed my self confidence.

So since the end of july I've been knee jerking back into manhood. Playing First person Shooters, drinking whiskey, Rum, Vodka, Scotch. (I know scotch is a whiskey) Driving fast at all times, totally being a murderous asshole to people on the road, swearing alot more. Working out, running, playing with knives.

All in all sticking it to the man.

Anyways, heres to all that text



Yours truly